A few years ago my health took a turn for the worse. And a couple years into declining health, I wrote the following:
Last time I went through a crisis like this, I thought, ‘I’m the toughest person I know,’ and I managed to push through it. Through the problems, through the surgeries, through the pain. But I’m not so sure I’m that tough anymore. I’ve come to realize I’m just someone who can’t give up. No matter how much I want to. And I’ve never wanted to more than now. Something deep inside me just knows that’s not an option. I’ve been straddling this line between “I don’t want to do this anymore” and “I just have to get through this.” But I do constantly wonder, is there a light at the end of this tunnel? I still can’t see it yet. It’s been so long and I still can’t see it yet.
I’ve struggled with this for about ten years now, but nothing’s been worse than these last two. Not my previous surgeries, not what caused them. This is the hardest it’s ever gotten. The most difficult it’s ever been. The pain. The lack of energy. Feeling like I just can’t do anything. Helpless. It’s rough.
Yet, before this whole episode, I remember someone asking me how I could have so much hope for the future, and it really caught me off-guard. I didn’t understand. All I could think was, ‘how could you not?’ I don’t get the concept of not having hope. Why would you wake up in the morning? How could you? When it comes right down to it, hope is the only thing we truly have.
Turn your fear into faith. Hope for the best, do your best, free yourself from worry, regret nothing.
Even though it was years ago, it feels like this is all still right behind me. But I am doing better now and it’s time to move on. I have spent a lot of time reading and keeping up with current events, as well as continuing to study what I focused on in university: Societal systems of control – propaganda, media, culture, religion, psychology, philosophy. What guides or pushes society in any given direction, and how? How does the world really work? To move on, I must write. These are the topics and questions I will explore and investigate in upcoming blog posts.
If you follow the news or recent events at all, you may think the world is going to hell. The West is in a death spiral. And with the overwhelming amount of information out there – both true and untrue – it can be extremely confusing and exhausting to parse. You may not realize it, but we are in the midst of a spiritual war – a war for your mind.
War is peace. Freedom is slavery. Ignorance is strength. Sickness is health. Why does it seem like these statements can so accurately describe the narrative of our current times? Is everything really so backwards? How did we get here? I’m reminded of a core principle of propaganda: Everything in this world is neither good nor evil, but public opinion makes it so. This means no matter what good or evil outcome is desired in the world, warping public opinion makes it possible to accomplish. You can convince the masses that evil is good, or good is evil through propaganda. Things may seem bleak, but whatever problem we find ourselves in, there is still hope. So how do we turn this around?
Plato argued that a unified narrative was required for a stable society. Currently, we have internet algorithms giving us a plethora of narratives so different that they are nearly impossible to reconcile. It is difficult to have a meaningful conversation with someone when you can’t even agree on basic facts. We are basically speaking different languages at this point, and everything is falling apart. It’s a modern day tower of Babel.
I will be discussing this and so much more in what’s to come. I wish to deep dive the problems plaguing society. They say a lie gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on. I aim to be that truth that has finally put its pants on.
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