To be honest, I feel I don’t know much about poetry. I just put my heart on the page and see where it takes me.
A New Season
Spring has come once again,
I think about you now and then.
Cloudy skies, bleeding heart,
Wish we never had to part.
Muddy paths, icy streets,
Where is really home for me?
I walk this path on my own,
Feeling somewhere far from home,
Did I leave my heart somewhere?
This burden is so much to bear,
Holding onto something of some kind,
In my head, on my mind,
Maybe I can leave it all behind,
And return to you someday.
Become strong and walk away,
From all I know, once again.
I think about you now and then.
Gloomy days, and cloudy skies,
Anxious thoughts and teary eyes,
Dirty roads and melting snow,
On this path, I walk alone.
Starting over one more time,
Leaving everything behind.
I do it all with you in mind.
Home is where the heart is,
but where is mine?
In front of me, two paths to choose,
Time is short, but I’ll wait for you.
The lake reflects the trees above,
Will you ever know my love?
Renewal blooms from those trees,
Could that be the same for me?
Rainy weather, lonely hikes,
Longer days and shorter nights,
I dream of seeing you again,
I think about you now and then.
Where am I supposed to be?
I think it’s time for me to leave.
I close my eyes, and make believe,
The truth is that you’re all I see.
Has it all been too long?
All this time, have I been wrong?
Places to be, places to go,
Calm yourself down, try taking it slow,
Just one step at a time,
But no matter what, time still flies.
Will this weight ever get lighter?
I miss those days that were brighter,
I wasn’t ready to say goodbye,
But now begin a new chapter in life.
Spring has come once again,
But ultimately, in the end,
I still think about you now and then.
Starlight
Stars poking holes through the night time,
Their vast beauty makes me realize,
What a small place we really occupy,
I think I'm in love with the night's sky.
But when I watch the world go by...
Where am I?
Art
If I could somehow illustrate,
In one fell stroke, all of my pain,
If I could show the world my rage,
Unleash it; release it from this cage
Kites in Chaos
A kite that needs to stay grounded,
Out there, a storm of insanity,
How strong is your string?
How much slack do you really have?
Or are you already blowing hopelessly, helplessly in the wind,
This way and that,
With no point of reference?
Do those lost in the sea of chaos have any hope of return?
Roller Coasters Summer days, rays of sunshine, What if she would become mine? Always fun and never boring, So exciting, what's your story? Nevermind, there's much to do, Take my hand, or I'll follow you, Is this too good to be true? Or maybe that's love, I think this is love, Running around, Holding you close, Screaming on this roller coaster. Autumn days, Hiding out from the rain, I hate to see you all in pain, Don't you dare slip away, I promise it'll be okay, Everybody has their problems, I'll be here, I'll help you solve them, We can work on it together, Let's both of us make this thing better, All the storms that we can weather, So caught up since I met her, But I gave up a lot for this, Should have always known the risk, To the bedroom, used to carry her, But now there's just this fucking barrier, In her heart, there's no more "we", She treats me like an enemy, And now I'm stuck on the outside, No matter how she tries to hide, I see how broken she is inside, Guess now I'm just here for the ride, Going down, down, down, Screaming on this roller coaster. Winter days, In a haze, in a daze, Hoping this is just a phase, She stares into a crooked mirror, There's nothing I can do from here, I sit and watch all your fears, All your anger, insecurities, All your hatred, destroy everything, I'm helpless as I see the girl I knew, Become a monster through and through, You'll just destroy both me and you. I fell into your honey trap, But then I felt that thing go snap, I've woken up, but something's wrong, Was that a dream all along? This place I'm in now is so far out there, You turned this into a horrid nightmare, That girl I thought that I once knew, She fades away, and now there's you. All I first saw was on the surface, Always trying to act perfect, But underneath, a self-serving purpose, Nothing you said was ever earnest, I tried so hard to be good, Did everything I thought I could, I've never felt so misunderstood, I don't think this is love, This can't be love, I've had enough, Of screaming on this roller coaster.
(Bitter) Memories
My heart is sinking,
And what should I do?
Turn to drinking? Like an alcoholic?
Pretend this hole in my heart doesn't exist?
Just like this drink,
My feelings are mixed,
Is our relationship something we can even preserve?
The truth is my burden is something you don't deserve,
I have to go,
And be alone,
To get through it all,
On my own,
Maybe we will forget,
All in good time,
My hand in yours,
And your hand in mine,
But I had to go,
I had to leave,
We were stubborn,
We were naive,
I don't blame you,
But you can blame me,
After all this time,
Maybe I still believe,
Those kids we were,
Were meant to be.